After having been caught between a sandstone cliff and quickly rising tide at 2 in the morning on a military base and having to scale a cliff while drunk with a 40 and find a homeless guy's shack and have my friend puke for 5 minutes and almost fall to his death at the beginning of the week, and finishing the week by belting out Danish folktunes while beating a dead turkey with a piece of rebar, i've hit bottom. Somebody give me a boost, please...
Hunter S. Thompson blew his brains out a few days ago, in the comfort of his own home. He was a great writer, even though I have a strong distaste for organized sports, and actively hate sportswriters, who don't communicate using the english language. Amusingly, Thompson wants his ashes spread by being shot out of a cannon. I always wanted mine dumped in the North Seattle Water Reservoir, but each to his own.
Apparently, my dreams of escaping the conservative wilderness of america is all for not. Bush made up with Chirac, and called him a good cowboy. Chirac didn't seem to be the least bit angry about this belittlement. The rest of Europe, including Germany, is now on the bandwagon with rebuilding Iraq, and the worldwide drift into the conservative christian mindset continues. I already got my damned ticket though, so I'll go there anyway. At least there I can learn another language while I work a dead-end job, and get in on all of the purportedly easy European pussy with my american accent. And if that doesn't work, the most attractive women in the world will fuck you for twenty dollars in the netherlands, which is the same cost as a movie or dinner date. If it seems like all the women you've fucked are whores, then you may as well save time and money and just fuck professional whores.

The effort for meaningful political change in America is useless.

Recently it has come to light that the Bush administration had several reporters on the whitehouse payroll, and were given questions to ask. This was bound to happen, because the reporter is then guaranteed to have a chance to ask their question and thus their job is secure, while at the same time getting paid by their employer as well as the whitehouse for asking their question. In doing so, the president can avoid any uncomfortable questions by reporters with higher morals and perhaps a liberal bug up their ass.

Such clear evidence that the public will be told what to think not only by the president himself but also by the media moles he owns has not been rubbed in the face of america so obviously for a long time. It is apparent that in a society that gets their newsbytes from cnn and other television programs that hold devestating tsunamis to be the same importance as the marriage of Prince Charles (as measured by time of the news segment), the public cannot be informed to the extent that they can vote intelligently. Unfortunately, the public is also too content to demand better news.

The contentment of our society is what lies at the root of our problems. I myself am too content to actually risk my life for political change, something more common in countries of desperation like Haiti. The best that a content society can muster is a protest, if our own society is representative of a content society. This means people wearing clown costumes and anarchist cheerleader outfits, dancing around in an attempt to...do what? Alienate the rest of the city? Protests only work if the protest represents the views of the majority, not a fringe. The unfortunate protest culture that has arisen in this country only serves to keep change from happening, by making the opposition to the conservatives look like fruitcakes. The rest of the city is going home, because no matter who is president, they will still get to eat. Once social welfare fails and there is a depression, people will lose their contentment, and real change can occur because the majority of people will demand it. Then the protests will no longer be full of merry anarchist clowns, but the ranks will be people wearing business suits and toolbelts, conservative dresses and slacks. It is in this configuration that a protest will induce change, because it is much harder for a policeman to hit a businessman or secretary than some punk with an "exploited" patch sewn onto a black sweatshirt. In fact, once the lines are blurred for the policeman, and he sees his peers and neighbors in a protest, it may finally occur that the police join in.

The idea behind the tactic of having cute girls dancing around in flower costumes at protests was good, in that police did not brutally beat them, but with no pain there is no gain and the protest will not get momentum from news that people were injured in its course. People with less means are far more ready to sacrifice for change. I saw a man impale himself in front of a protest, in front of a policeline. Needless to say he wasn't american. The man in tiananmen square was also a good example: the image is so much more powerful since he is holding a briefcase, with his dress shirt and black slacks on. He truly represents the people, much better than anarchists carrying an enormous effigy of a native american raingod or some other foolishness. While I am as much a fan of spectacle as anyone, artists need to keep it out of protests. Protests need to go back to the roots of pure outrage and violence.

I am something of a hypocrite in this matter, because recently I have become incredibly self-centered with my own personal problems. How can one be concerned with lofty ideals like peace and curing the world's hunger problem when you don't even like yourself anymore? Self-loathing is the greatest demotivator. I now have a nihilistic outlook on politics, and though I take interest in world events, the bleak future of the country no longer interests me as much as getting laid, drunk, or high. I hate almost everything, including myself, so why should I care about affecting social change? There was once a time when I wanted to help people find something I suppose you might call fairness, but now that I feel it has been denied to me, I say fuck fairness and fuck everyone with and without a decent existence, it's not my problem.

Self-loathing is not necessarily a bad thing. Many consider those who hate themselves to be suicidal cure fans who playfully make slices on their wrists that barely go skin deep for attention. The person who hates themselves can still enjoy life and carry on in a fashion that is no different from their lives before they realized that they don't like themselves. The only difference is that they wish they were someone else, or they wished that they did something different that can never be undone. Food still tastes the same, drugs still do the same things, and it still feels good to plug the hole of some miserable self-absorbed bitch.

The benefits of being full of hatred for yourself are that you no longer need to waste processor time thinking about abstract subjects, like politics. I used to care about the plight of world hunger and the rights of minorities and all of that, but then I realized that none of it matters. The world is unfair. At first I thought that I had to give something back to the world because life seemed very fair to me, but then I realized that the world will never give me what I want, so there is little point in wasting time trying to get the world to give other people what they want. The harder it is for everyone to survive, the better off we will all be. Adversity breeds strength, and the more death that results from world hunger and war, the less shit the world will have to deal with from the weak. No party currently has any plan that envisages any true changes, so politics without bloodshed are really pointless. The root of the problem will continue to exist until our society stops worrying about keeping everyone happy, and just let those who need to die die.

I got to thinking about this while listening to the conversation on NPR 94.9. They were talking about how half of all bankruptcies are caused by medical bills, and most insurance companies don't cover you for what you think they are. One major injury and you lose your job, and then you lose medical insurance. The thing of it is that the poor have always been in this situation. This is in order to insure that the worthless are not able to breed the worthwhile out of existence, as they would be able to if there were free medical care. Oh, you got cancer? Good, maybe you won't be able to pass a predisposition for cancer on to offspring you can't have because you'll be dead. The same goes for allergies and other genetic diseases. The bar for survival has been lowered too much in the world, and too many inferior people are breeding. I submit as evidence the horrible shapes walking around in the walmarts of the world. Ayn Rand once was disgusted by them: their lack of breeding is apparent in a body shape that is somewhat amorphous and featureless, or is covered by a thick viscous layer of revolting fat and gristle that could better be used as some sort of industrial lubricant. These people should not exist. They are supported by a medical system that is too forgiving. Someone who is 400 pounds is that way either because they have some horrible organ failure that means they are unworthy of progeny, or because they like packaged food too much and medicaid gives them free medicines enabling them to continue engorging themselves past any reasonable and natural capacity. These people are often short and hunched over, and they are unlikely to be of any great intelligence, though they will be well suited for the retail or service industries that they and their relatives are lifelong members of.

The real problem is that in our society there is no means by which to filter out the weak. In fact, our current progressive movement seeks to protect the weak instead of the strong. How much money has been wasted on enabling the genetically inferior to wheelchair themselves into any building? What is needed is a predatory creature that will thin out the herd in a way that selects the weak and old. I am the first to admit that without modern medical care I would have died as a child, but as a person who has nothing but hatred for themselves I do not defend my right to existence, though I am not one of the corpulescent that I believe are dragging down the genepool. Something that would benefit the world immensely is to bring back the ancient predators of man that were fought out of existence. They helped us to reach our greatest potential faster. How would we have invented the atlatl had there not been dangerous large animals whose meat we craved? Or the barbed spearhead with a bloodgroove? I therefore propose that we bring back the smilodon, the cave bear, any poisonous snakes that used to live in temperate climates, etc. The Pacific Northwest that I now call home has no indigenous species that hunt humans except the cougar, which has been nearly hunted out of existence. The problem with reintroducing these creatures is that the only people who would be hunted by them are the very people that are worthwhile, the people who commune with nature by hiking through public lands or swimming in the ocean or riding across a plain. The hard part about introducing some predator of man is figuring out one that will attack the dregs of humanity in their homes on the outskirts of the suburbs or the inner city, where predatory creatures can't currently exist.

That's where science comes in. An organism needs to be created that is attracted to the smell of fat people. I know this smell well from public transportation. Also, there needs to be a new virus that has a faster kill time than AIDS. AIDS does the job well, but it takes too long to kill people. The time needs to be brought down to around 6 months after exposure. The median age of people needs to be reduced back down to 30, with lifespans reaching up to 60. The medical system currently keeps people alive artificially far past when they should reasonably be alive. The nursing homes are places for the living dead, and really have no place in this world. The people who are propped up on various medications paid for by the social net mostly didn't provide society with anything useful, and the cost of producing such medicines far outweighs the benefits these walking dead provide the world. Imagine if the same resources that keep old people with no money alive were instead diverted to alternative energy research. We'd be able to halt global warming and various diseases caused by petrol oxidation reactions and at the same time drive without waiting for intolerably bad old drivers to turn. That's why I applaud Bush for trying to change the social security system. The stupid will invest their social security in tech stocks and blow it, and then hopefully they will die early or drain resources from their derivative stupid children who will not then be able to support as many children. The intelligent will invest in intelligent assets, like futures. Then their children will be able to devote their resources to their own progeny. Hopefully the balance of stupid people to intelligent people will be restored after a certain amount of this has gone on.